As I have a lower mental capacity now due to the treatment of my condition, I am reminded as to what it takes to be able to read. Besides the ability to focus, the ability to think while considering the meaning and intent of words is not a simple task and could be considered multitasking, except that for it to happen, usually one must become proficient enough at one task to be able to completely focus on the other.

I feel like I've learned a lot about dealing with myself over the past year, but also I know how handicapped mentally and physically I feel. Sometimes it feels so bad that games and books are my only escape. I'm not good at watching things so I don't especially watch videos (except youtube). I understand it as that keeping pace with a video tires me out emotionally, since I usually use that ability all the time.

I'm unable to reflect and analyze my own writing to a large degree. I can do it, but it is slow because I have to use different parts of my brain than I normally would to make up for the loss. Pretty much only a fever would help me out (because my brain works better at a higher temperature for some reason).

I've more or less given up on my live journal because I can't be bothered to keep up with the login verification. Since this place doesn't require that since it was absorbed by Google (all those years ago) I can place my thoughts here, such as they are.

今も考えられる範囲が・・・狭っているというより限られている、その言い方の方が合ってる気がする。言葉も使う機会あまり無い上に会話の方が苦手だった私ならここで気軽く書ける。