Heart on Wave

I've finally managed to get to a point where I can somewhat study again, feel my mind learn and expand on something again. But it's not much and I feel slightly useless. I know I'm going to incur a debt on this in work, but somehow I feel that I'm okay with it, since it's not something I can do anything about. I wish I could, but the most I could do with my time right now is tutor someone else. It doesn't take as much energy but just a lot of focus.

It's still too far to reach another life, I suppose. I wnat to reach out to you, but I feel like it's just so far away now, like this. Perhaps you have known this feeling before. Maybe my thoughts could be brought to you, in this manner....

ああ、病気だからこそ、あなたの顔を見たいっ
この気持ちで溢れる掌で、あなたのひそめた瞳の奥に届けたい。